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How's this for a turn around?

I am not okay on so many levels. I feel like my insides are gone and like I'll either fly apart or cave in like a deflated balloon.
I want to be alone but I think I would go crazy if I were.
Things look normal, but they can't possibly be.
I want to sleep and not think.
But when I wake up tomorrow morning I just know that I won't recall right away what has happened. I'll be at peace for a few seconds.
And then I'll remember.
And things will start over.